...and I'm still here. ...Huh? So it seems mom decided that she'll keep me around for the time being. I'm horribly confused. Horribly. Confused. Meanwhile I'm still making every effort to pack my life up as best as possible in case my father pulls through and I'm able to move out this weekend. In the mean time? *shrug* I do some errands, I read a bunch, I practise and I try to make myself relatively scarce.

So I'm getting to spend time with Kathryn lately. That's cool. Other than that... I miss everyone. *sigh* Well at least in this case I valued my friends fully before missing them. I love you guys... Now if only I had money for travel and visiting.

I have nothing of worth to say today. It's because I'm too horribly confused. Yup. I just don't know. I've been in a very good mood with little provocation, and I just feel as though it's unwise. Plus I keep waiting for the axe to fall. Guh. Stupid conditional love. Today was a lecture on healthcare in an attempt to make me regret my willfull ways. Let me tell you, I have been paying attention, and I knew this stuff already. I never said life was easy. I just said it was less psychotic elsewhere. *shrug* No one else seems to catch this idea, either... My father gets all concerned about my stuff arriving home safely, my mother is concerned about me being taken care of in terms of health.... I don't care if I die. I don't care if I lose all my possessions. As long as I haven't personally done myself in or injured myself, I don't care. I think it's been three years now that I've felt that if something happens, so be it. I just don't care enough to go out of my way to prevent these things. I'm just... I think it's lack of respect. In any case, I don't think I'm invincible. I just don't care.

Hmm, I should be downstairs minding my bizarre cookery. Time to wander off.
posted by Unknown at 11:47 PM