"...but why?" "I really have no idea."

We just watched in exess of two hours of video for utopia. I think I may have spent an hour and a half of that time crying. At least an hour of it was footage of violence, burning, death, pain.... Why? I don't know. I'm so unhappy right now. I was angry at the beginning. I can't manage that now. Really, too, who can put words to this? There's no good explanation, there is no neat categorization. No one deserves to die that way. I don't care if you yourself are deranged. Insane people don't deserve to be gassed and burned to death. I don't care if you think they warrant death. Some people can think that way. Regardless of any of that I most certainly know their children didn't deserve pain, gassing, death, burning. I am so angry.

I'm angry at the people responsible for deciding to harm these people. I'm angry at the people who shot this video and felt the need to not just show us the injustice, but also add the music soundtrack to manipulate emotion, to show so repeatedly all this information in such a leading manner and in a way which has caused me to feel so sickened. They really made this whole incident into anti-government propaganda. I can understand this to a certain extent, but the video seemed blatantly manipulative to me. Not that I could manage to avoid it. That much death.... What in the hell do you need a soundtrack for? I'm angry at our professor for decided that we needed to see this and doing it while he's at a conference. Had he been in class... had he even given us a hint of what was to come... Damn, I would have asked to leave. I've done so in the past when we watch things on the halocaust. I'm sorry, but I'm an emotional person and an extreme empath, and after about an hour or so of this I was wondering if I might vomit.

The name of this class is utopia. I think the idea of the film was to see how people react to critique of society and to see the prejudice that results. Well it's all too damn clear now, thank you. I did not need to see this. I can't justify it. There was actual footage of burned and mutilated corpses. Inluding a body of an eight year old. I don't think anyone should be required to see this, and damned certainly not without warning.

The events we watched today took place more than eight years ago. I didn't know what was going on then, although the way they kept the media out seems to indicate probably no one did. I had only the vaguest of conceptions when I was twelve about this sort of thing, and I really didn't want to know. I still don't want to know. I can't believe I just watched all of it.

I don't think there is anything in the entire world more depressing than seeing the depths of human hate. I don't even know why... what was their justification? Why... I can't even begin to understand. I'm pretty damned happy that I can't understand, actually. I feel so sickened. It almost seemed systematic.... They ensured that no one would have much of a chance of surviving. And it was so cold-blooded. And they didn't seem to really understand what they were doing. And then they attempted to come out looking innocent. They were provoked? They were pushed to this end? So they brutally slaughtered these people, these children? HOW DO YOU EVER JUSTIFY KILLING PEOPLE? They weren't causing massive casualties.... They were being slaughtered. I'm not sure how many people it was exactly, but I know it was less than ten in total, and this while they had a full frontal attack launched on them with automatic weapons, then gassing, then flash grenades... Even if the FBI didn't ever shoot them, which seems hardly likely from the FLIR footage we viewed, you still can't excuse it. I don't care what you say about stockpiling weapons, even about possible child abuse. Whatever children you might have claimed to be fighting for were incinerated alive. Possibly not alive, actually, since they don't make gas masks that fit children, and the gas used on them could cause unconsciousness or death.

There was nothing you could say about this whole video. There was no rationality in the statements the politicians argued back and forth in an attempt to explain the actions of the government agencies.... On the whole, my reaction to that much... I can't even see how it was hate. They just senselessly killed people. It didn't even seem to have any rationale. It was insanity. All I could think was a rather large "fuck you," to all those who pretended that they could argue logistics and attempt to pardon themselves.

The video made it seem as though it was taking a highly unpopular view and attempting to expose hidden truths. Honestly, even if the video exaggerated the guilt of our government, I still feel that they were unpardonable. They don't deny gassing the whole damed structure. They didn't deny the extra effort they went to to get the most secure room available. We're told by the video that the women and children had all gathered in that room by that point. I just can't believe...

No one deserved that. Not on any level. I just don't care what you accuse them of. If they are insane... they don't need to be exterminated. Insanity is not a crime. No one deserves to be burned alive. There's no reason.

THERE IS NO REASON.
posted by Unknown at 7:35 PM