i love my friends. yes, this is a constant thought for me. we had such a great time today. conversation and beastie boys in the background. the nine of us sat around and talked and played musical chairs over dinner crowded into a living room too small for us with just a bit too little seating. every time someone got up to get something to drink, or to get the phone, or to use the bathroom, they would come back and find that the new open spot had changed, or was gone.

after all of this everyone who didn't live at the house left except for me. suz, cara, adam and i talked a bit, then played trivial pursuit a bit. until we got giggly. in nineteen sixty eight we claimed there were forty seven point five stars on the flag because half of alaska fell into the ocean. also... "what general was known as "old blood and guts?" became slightly corrupted into "what general was named "old blood and guts?" causing suz to comment "what a darling little boy!! i think i'll name him 'oldbloodandguts'!" we were laughing continuously for about five minutes.

damn. i hate inferior craftsmanship. i've just listened to a project i worked on last year and realized that i shorted myself big time.... i should have mixed this down to one track, then recorded over it... urgh. tapers are nonexistent and it's all because i didn't spend as much time on the audio editing aspects as i needed. i could do so much better... i hate perfectionism. my constant foe. i should do this all over again correctly. i should just do more in general. i have yet to finish the last piece i started.

i feel like i have nowehere to go. no one ever gave me any information about *how* to compose. i'm making it all up. i've come up with some good stuff... i'm pretty proud of my soundtrack for labyrinth, but then again... there's not method behind it, specifically. i don't ever know what i'm doing. urgh.

i give up. i'll just keep doing things without any technique. it's vaguely worked so far, right? right.
posted by Unknown at 12:58 AM