in an effort to move away from the angst of tori amos, i've moved on to the angst of the cure. anyone else want to ridicule my idiocy? i'm really enjoying this, though... been a long time since i listened. staring at the sea--their greatest hits from before most people were aware they had hits. =Þ doesn't have lovesong, so it isn't perfect, but this stuff is nice anyhow.

today they stuck only two of us in again. blargh. i should have figured that i'd get screwed with the rampant losses in the department. didn't really seem to matter, though. worked with amanda, who is a great person, and lots of fun to talk to. i ended up helping her in her departments rather than tending to my own for a couple hours so that we could talk. which is fine since i got the easier assignment and she could have used help anyhow. just a bit upset that we stayed more than a half hour after again, plus i still can't find personnel and i still have no money.

oh, so today was pioneer day. what did that mean to me? absolutely nothing. well, except that bus service didn't run, so i was damned lucky debi was home, or else i'd have been doing some interesting fuddling. i asked debi what pioneer day was. she doesn't know either. bloody important holiday, i gather.

ooh, let's go to bed. fun song. but what do "i'm shaking like milk" and "fires outside in the sky look as perfect as cats" mean? i want to get to bed soon so that i can get up early and finally put this stuff on full volume and sing along all i want. two days in a row of unexpected still sleeping people in afternoon. bah.

fourteen days until i quit work. nineteen until i'm home. but more important than home is my computer. heh. i'll be happy to see my father again. not commenting otherwise on familial obligations. ooh, bugger. reminds me that i'll prolly have to visit ima. *rolls eyes* i better find another good outfit and dig out some makeup.

i still can't believe my last visit to ima. i think she thought i usually dress poorly or something. which isn't the case. my favourite outfits are formal, but i guess this was the first time i visited her while wearing something nice. argh. so she was all happy then, but now i feel like there's pressure that every time i see her in the future i have to look prettier and thinner. like that's happening. so silly of her, too. she claims it's because she's concerned for our health, but her actions belie that. taking me off to see her friend and ranting about how i look nice because i'm healthier? no.

i swear when i grow up i'm going to be someone's crazy relative, but never *that* kind of crazy. i want to vow that i'll always attempt to be harmless. :) and no throwing people's clothes out on the driveway.

ooh. in between days. good song. :) i love this album. hehe, i'm entirely too fond of way too many sorts of music and certainly too many artists. i seem to find value in everything in life. which is odd considering i don't seem to entirely be an optimist. but i like everything in life. heh. i like everything, but still think it isn't any good. damn, i'm the most contrary person ever. i think i just have a heart full of love and a mind full of regret. aaagh, i'm cutesy and sappy. quite.

hmm. should head off. but i'm not tired. i dislike my schedule. *frown* blarghing stupid excess energy at one, two and three am. eh, we'll try to get past it. g'night.
posted by Unknown at 1:54 AM