i just went to put legend outside for a bit... it's beautiful out. i love the sky in utah. when the sun is setting or rising, it's always over mountains, and late at night when it's clear out you can actually see the stars. i can also see provo off in the distance. it looks exactly as it should look. i can't really describe it other than that, though.
it's been baking to death in here for days now. i should lay out pools of water and make my own damned sauna. somehow it isn't getting to me that much, but still. eek.
work again tomorrow. big whoo. debi was saying that she's not sure she's feeling well enough to go to salt lake for the weekend as usual. wow, i might go from lonely weekends to maidservice weekends. no, it isn't that bad. i just like to whinge. damn me. in any case, i'm sure it'll be fine either way. if debs is here, then maybe i'll actually get to spend time with her, and perhaps even, dare i say it? leave the house for something other than work? hum. if she visits rob again, then i can catch up on practicing and since i should be getting paid tomorrow *crosses fingers* i could possibly even do things on my own. not much, i'll grant you, but maybe i could get ambitious enough to drag myself at least to provo. i need to do *something*.
i'm considering buying a phone card when i get paid. i feel like it's a frivolous luxury, but i haven't spoken with jenna or lisa for something like three or four months. ack. my social life is entirely confined to the internet.
fun time in irc tonight. roup introduced us to this game where we guessed famous people/characters from initials and yes/no questions. i *really* did think that linus torvald was sort of a household name, so when i was the only one in the channel who knew roup's answer i started to feel ubergeek again. heck, i'm always ubergeek. that shouldn't even be my geek field of specialty, though. if i had wanted to i could have always done something really evil and pulled a "what do you mean you don't know of gyorgi ligeti?" well, i stuck with normal ones. i should have went for harder, i think. although we prove once more that i'm not even that ignorant comparatively--it's everyone. i think only one person in the room knew who jacque chiraq was. *sigh* at least they guessed the pendragon fairly quickly.
i miss my music so much. it's insane. i can't even listen to much online, since realplayer seems to require more memory than this computer can reasonably dish out while still functioning. i was trying to listen to a new artist, splashdown, recommended to me by the cornucopia of weird musicliciousness, stenny, and it had some interesting results. all the ims i was writing i would complete typing, then have to watch print themselves out fifteen seconds later. the best was seeing the writing automatically go back and edit itself since i usually can feel my mistakes when i type without seeing them.
in any case, i'm wilting over here more because of my lack of cds and whatnot than because of the heat. i'm completely dependent. it's rather lame, i think, but at least it's my career so i can sort of justify it? hum. and i want more exposure to more artists, but i won't even be able to really find them here.
i have this random urge to just build something. it's just odd and it came out of nowhere. i want to go and hammer something together. it's been a while since i've done any real art... maybe i need to sculpt. not that i have anything much with me to do that with. hum. maybe i'll start making my list of things to bring to school with me this weekend in an attempt to pass the time. damn i'm sad.
well, no. really everyone i know wants to be back at school. except for those who are, and they say they miss everyone else. talked to suz today, who apparently is on campus, but i haven't a clue why. maybe woodwind quartet camp? damn, i really wanted to do that, too. stupid financial whatever.
in any case, i'm still considering a paper chain to count the days. i want my friends back. i want my life back. i want my music back. enough whinging, really.
i think i should head off, since i have nothing positive to say even though i'm not upset. life is just blah. it'll all get better in a month. i think. g'night.
posted by Unknown at 1:11 AM