today at about eleven am my prayers were answered. sort of lame when your prayers are answered by some woman whose name i couldn't make out in the k mart store of spanish fork. that's all right, though. i just don't care what i'm doing at this point. the thing is that i hardly spend anything, so a minimum wage job at a stupid store doesn't bother me. it'll be something to do, finally, it'll shut mom up, and i'll come out of the summer with hopefully six hundred dollars saved.
i'm hoping my math is conservative. i haven't found out what exactly the wage will be, or my hours. i guess i'll find out on monday. i have some hope that they'll take me over minimum wage (hee ya! *whip crack* too much TMBG) since the last time i was working i got 6.75 an hour and i'm not actually doing register. i think working a department is supposed to be a step up. in any case, my biggest expenditure will be transportation, i guess. lessee... say i get 6$, just to be moderate... forty hours, but taxes and ten bucks transportation a week.... let's say i come out of this with $175 a week. now i'm saying i'm working straight through august 12th, or whatever leaving me a day and a half to pack. this is fine, i have little of interest to pack, thank you. okay, so that means roughly seven weeks. so $1225? i could open up the calculator app, but then i'd feel stupid. ah, checking backward by starting with 200 and subtracting gives me the same answer. fabulous. i'm still geeky enough to do multiplication in my head at five fifteen in the morning. it took me a bit too long, though. i'm not a fine quality geek.
well, anyhow, so we can't afford a piccolo and our hopes and dreams are crushed... so what? argh. auditions are going to suck on my POS emerson. doesn't matter. i want to have only half of my ending estimate for school, so theoretically i can afford things like shopping, which requires about twenty dollars a week. i should also be able to afford whatever moneys necessary for an august august brunchmeet. good heavens, that was a geeky sentence. hi, i'm in nerd mode since i just read through a significant amount of the jargon file. apparently my typing habits parallel rather closely those of many hackers. greeaaat. i'm at least semi-legit. i've learned two languages, and i do remember a bunch of it.
i'm seriously beginning to think about the possibility of a career in computers, and i started discussing it with debi. she says it's what she wants to be doing, too. she also made a really good offer for me. she said i should consider moving out here to utah for a few years after school and teaching. (eep) the thing is that certification here is dead easy, or not even mandatory. new york is a lot tougher. also, smaller class sizes than what i'm thinking of on long island. also, no parents. also utah is fairly rife with computer industry. debs suggested i take classes while teaching (and especially in summer) and i'll be able to get certification and go on to do what i want.
this has a lot of positives merely because it sounds feasible. it also has a bunch of negatives, one of the largest being utah. debs is talking about moving to seattle at some point down the line, which is something i've briefly considered as well.... i think that if these sort of plans came to fruition, i wouldn't want to live with debi all that long. for the first couple months until i could find my feet, sure, but longer?
one cannot begin to believe what our carpet looks like at this point. debi suggested that this would be a fabulous occasion for having a digital camera. no one would ever believe this unless they witnessed it
debi has a bit of an obsessive habit of trying to help darling legend shed his winter coat faster. granted he'd do it on his own eventually, but she's just going nuts with it. tonight she spent two hours pulling his fur off and dropping it on the carpet. which i recently vacuumed. argh. meanwhile legend is wiggling and yelping and being generally unhelpful. this drives me nuts. you couldn't do this outside, perhaps? logic?? hello?
that's my biggest pet peeve. things that people do that make no sense. i'm sure i'm guilty of it too, sometimes. sometimes i yell at myself for it, actually. the thing is that certain members of my family have this problem in spades. notably mom and my grandmother. debs isn't anywhere near as bad, but her kitchen makes me want to holler.
oh, and i really dislike dogs, just for the record. there is currently vomit on the floor near me. debi says it's relatively inoffensive because it is mostly comprised of... you'll never guess... her underwear. *sigh* this is not in any way, shape or form redeeming. i have to admit that legend can be fun. he's not all that poorly behaved. i'm sure he was good company for debi when she knew no one else in utah. nonetheless, i still find that dogs suck.
we had a power outage today. around eight thirty until nine thirty. it's actually quite fortuitous that it's the longest day of the year since i spent that time outside in a field alternately trying to read and turning cartwheels. debs came out to give legend some exercise after a while.... at one point she didn't give me any warning and i was lying down reading when i got bulldozed. he walked on me. *pout* and he licked me. a lot. and i was rolling away from him as fast as i could, and debi was just laughing, and i couldn't get out of the way. argh. it's hard to get up from a lying down position while you're trying to stay in motion.
oh, so i went to debi's softball game, which she pretty much ordered me to attend. man, i'm sorry, but her team sucks. i spent most of the time reading, but when i looked up it seemed that her team was having awfully short innings. i finished off arrow's flight by mercedes lackey just in time for the game to finish. i looked up and saw the score. home: 4, visitors: 24. who knew you could lose that badly in softball? not me. at any rate, debi did score one of the four runs for her team. whoo. as a bizarro reward for attending this insanity (note: i remembered sunscreen this time, so i look normal now!) debs went and bought a glass pie pan.
derangedly enough, this is a reward for me. i've had this odd hankering to make quiche. not so much that i want to eat any, but that at this point it is just normal for me to cook or bake something generally once a week, and at worst once a month. it's a high point at school, since campus meal plans bite.
it's more fun to do at school, though, since you have people who'll help you, and people who'll admire your talents afterward. plus if you have more spine than i do, you can even get people to pay you back, and sometimes even make a buck or two. i'm not one of these people. i end up putting out twenty five bucks of my own to bake three lasagnes, i feed the whole hallway, and i end up having seven dollars worth of donations.
doesn't bother me all that much, though, since i don't do it often, and i get a heck of a lot of praise for it. :) we'll do anything to please, lamely enough.
anyhow... so tomorrow i have nothing particular to do, and debi will be spending the weekend with rob again. umm, irc anyone? i have no life. it's utah, though. no one else does, either. i can't wait for august to approach and to start preparing to go back to school. i can't believe how centered my life is on schooling. i haven't been without it for seventeen years, i think, and i can't really imagine the real world. i can't just stop after this year. "okay, eighteenth year. we're done!" who makes that sort of a transition? grad school? please? maybe?
if i go with debi's plan, it might be really hard to go to grad school. it'll be night school or just classes with no ending degree. darn it all, it's not quite what i want out of life. who knows if i can quite get what i want, though? when i get back to school it's definitely going to be time to see the job counseling center. well, it'll work out, really. i'm going to just believe. *nodnod* and since we're now approaching six in the morning, i really better go. damn and blast, but i talk too much. good... night? morning? *sigh* whatever.
posted by Unknown at 4:53 AM