i've found someone else who has heard of I'AM and who has heard positive things. jesse dangerously, one of the poeple on the brunching board was in irc today, and the conversation ended on music. i was sort of hoping i'd have the chance to ask him about this at some point since it's evident he's such a rap fan, but i was not really expecting him to have heard of this stuff. he said that it's been highly recommended to him by all of his friends. oh, and i didn't even bring them up, he said it first, which i thought was cool.
he said a bunch of people he knows listens to them. darn, i want to talk to these people. i could blab for hours on the brilliance of shurik'n, akhénaton, i'am... argh. i bet they're all fluent french speakers, though. well, i'd look silly, but maybe they could finally tell me what "niquer la hala" and "foutre le dawa" mean. well, i know the verbs, but i think they're colloquialisms or whatever, and i don't know the meaning of the complete phrase.
meanwhile, it's twelve forty five and my sister isn't home yet from her jorg date. i need to stop calling him jorg. he might be my brother in law soon. argh. "yeah, my brother, jorg...." umm, no. man, i wonder if debi'll take his name. "deborah sharon jorgensen" *snerk*.
i wonder if they are definitely going to get married. debs said i'd prolly be the only bridesmaid just out of convenience. then she reminded me (as if i knew this in the first place?) that the bridesmaids are supposed to hold the bridal shower. umm.... right. i can cook. i'll invite everyone to my rec room at school... yeah, that'll work. *shrug* i dunno what she's expecting of me. i have the money to come up with a bridal shower myself. yeah, that's it. aiee.
i remember only two years ago when debi was sure she'd never have a relationship and she actually made me promise not to have sex before her because she'd be embarrassed. you needn't have worried debi, really. i'm not exactly eager to go dumping myself into the bed of some random college guy. now i'm the most naive of my friends, i think. all of them have had boyfriends for enough time to become at least somewhat serious, and i'm sitting here going... what's it like? =Þ
funny, i never used to care. i feel like i'm just paranormal and missing what everyone else considers to be life. i shouldn't concern myself with that, though. what other people consider to be important has always been a source of amusement for me. damn, i'm a bad person. meanwhile, i'm sitting here thinking on occasion about whether or not i'd be acceptable to the mormons... strictly in terms of what i've done in life, probably i would be. man, i'm such a goodie goodie. it's just odd. my philosophies always cater to a more wild lifestyle, i think, since i'm such an advocate of everyone doing as they please, but personally what i please seems to be nothing exciting. maybe some day i'll rebel and run away to LA. =Þ couldn't we all just see that?
i guess i'm feeling whimsical tonight. i think i've been consistently in a good mood since i've been in utah. minus the whinging for the sunburn. i hope it looks better tomorrow...i'm supposed to interview. crud. i don't have all the addresses i need. argh. how do i get them? i need to not worry so much. this is an interview for a grocery store. perspective, girl!
i've been talking to all the people on the brunching board so much more often than i do my other friends online. i saw about twenty people in irc, and i spoke with only four people who i know in real life on aim. that's just odd. i don't know. well, the thing is that all of the brunching people are really just splendid. they're all funny, nice and smart. i honestly think that if i met any of them in real life i'd find them all just great. i think at this point i either have to decide that a) it's pathetic and i have no life for talking to people i don't know, or b) i do know them. at least somewhat.
if not for my sake then for the sake of these people, i think i'm siding with b. i've spent a lot of time talking to some people particularly, and i think i know them as well as or better than some people i've met. i think i've gotten to know acsu, rabi'a, genarti, kailet and gl as well as some of the people downstairs in my dorm last year. what does physical sight and interaction grant you in a relationship anyhow? people can misrepresent themselves however they choose whether or not you know them in person. i do think that vocal cues would give a more genuine feeling to it, though. well, i did talk to kai. kai is awesome. she liked my british accent. :) i'll never get over that.
largely, the only misrepresentation you can pull off online that you can't in real life is that of what you look like. i think by and large none of us have a reason to try this. there is no reason i should believe that say, kai would want us all to think she looked the way i think she does if she were actually different. it would make no sense for someone to think that we're not being true to life, because what we all have put up as photos of ourselves... well, i don't think we're all raving beauties or anything, and i wasn't under the impression that that was what anyone was interested in. i also can't see why anyone would want to fake people out.
aren't we all looking for a personal connection? if you aren't being you, then the connection isn't with you. what's the point, then? plus i'd really like to meet a bunch of these people, since i think i admire a lot of them, so misrepresentation would keel over and die at that point anyhow.
one wonders what my family would think of it. well, the most obvious candidates for people i could meet would be the nyc contingent, including people like toon, harmonious and ismaryann. somehow i don't find this to be an alarming prospect. if i'm going to go into the city, then meeting these people isn't really a significant added risk, so far as i see.
ooh, debi's home. fun. i guess i'll go then. :)
posted by Unknown at 12:17 AM