fun dentist visit today. i love it when they pull out the scraping tool to clean your teeth. they never manage to entirely miss your gums. doesn't bother me, though, my blood tastes quite good in my opinion. how disturbing.
so after yesterday's mini fiasco with healthcare whatever, today i discovered that i do indeed have my father's health care card, which really is more important that mom's. empire health doesn't really do much out of the empire state, it seems.
meanwhile, i haven't told mom i have the card yet. i think i'm just being spiteful since she's being so nasty to me the past couple days. all these sarcastic cheap shots. and this from the woman who constantly says, "i don't like sarcasm." maybe you don't when i use it, but you certainly seem to love to bite me with it.
argh. the last few days you see your daughter before she leaves for two months... you'd think that maybe you'd want to spend quality time, or have a nice talk? no, you want to bash her feelings some more. come on, everyone join in, it's fun! *sigh*
i think i'm getting to the point where i don't care anymore. i'm just losing all respect for her. her wrath just seems empty and sad, now. i'm beginning to mentally compare her to my grandmother, ima. this is a certain sign that i think she's lost all touch with reality and/or rationality.
i should start taking the same policy toward mom that she uses on ima: appeasement. i wonder if she'll notice. i'm sort of already doing it unintentionally. what else do you do when someone wakes you up after five hours of sleep to yell at you about picking the wrong suitcase? especially since she wouldn't describe the right suitcase or help me find it in any way. (did i not predict that it would be the wrong suitcase? how well do i know my circumstance?) meanwhile, when the right suitcase finally turned up it was broken anyhow. *sigh* for this i get up? (wow, that sounded like an old jewish grandmother. go me.)
anyhow, i did get a few things accomplished today. i have almost completely finished packing. two days too early. i have no idea what clothes i'm going to wear for the next two days. *shrug* i also finally went and got myself a multivitamin. i really need it since i'm vegetarian. this one is bonzo nutzoid and should put dad's little b12 anxiety to rest. he's concerned about my iron and b12. what a loving dad. :) this particular mulitvitamin is point blank insane, and provides 4167% of my daily recommended b12. i can't get over that. who the heck needs that much b12? actually that's the amount in two pills, which is the serving suggestion, but i think i'm going to wimp out and go for one. (especially since each pill is the size of texas) this doesn't look likely to cause problems since there's 50 to 250% of everything else and i'm actually eating well within my vegetarian diet. ah heck, i always eat healthily. i don't even like junk food. my favorite things to eat are things like asparagus, broccoli, artichoke and spinach. well, that and pasta. pobody's nerfect.
i think this should be really positive, though. if any of my lethargy and lack of motivation of late has been due to diet, this should help. that really is a decent possibility, too, as i haven't been having near enough iron and protein. so in any case, i should be feeling all happy and puddle wonderful in three days or so or my money back! well, no, not my money back, but i'm pretty sure that nonetheless i won't have needed my money back. maybe my leg'll stop twinging, too. that's got to be either stress or iron.
i'm going to meet rob! i'm going to see debs for the first time since thanksgiving! i'm going to utah! well, okay, that one doesn't really deserve an exclamation point. utah. ick. utah. well, debi says it's nice. i think that's 'cause the mormons brainwashed her, though. =Þ
i wonder if i should just resign myself to my fate and immediately go and apply for a job at k mart? =Þ it'd prolly be better than k mart at home anyhow, since i can't see anyone else in this country being capable of the obnoxiousness of long islanders. well, maybe people in california. new yorkers are notoriously rude, though, and i think long island is actually bringing up the average. since i've been home i'm realizing that i don't want to live here. (and it's not like i want to stick around to be near my relatives.) i should move out of state. i'm thinking either new england with a slight decrease in temperature (yay!) or really extreme and going to seattle. i don't know, west sounds good to me, lately. i do love new york, but i think i need a change, and i'll have the opportunity. heh, i know i will. mom told me today she's going to kick me out into the street when i'm twenty one. thank you, mom. utah again, anyone? in any case, it's a blammed good thing that financial aid and loans cover my college costs this year, otherwise i might genuinely have something to worry about. after all, if she's serious then i should be out of luck spring semester. good for her. i don't want to be dependent on her. plus then i'll have an excuse not to come see her over spring break. i'll be broke.
actually, i doubt it. assuming i don't have too many difficulties finding a job this summer, i should be fine next year. i spent all of this past year on austerity and i know now how to pinch spending with a vengeance. not like i ever spent much in the first place, but i think this past semester i spent about one hundred dollars on absolutely everything i needed. i bet most of that was laundry, too, since i never went out and i bought almost nothing frivolous.
i shouldn't be that surprised. it's not like fredonia's an expensive place to live, and i've never quite been covetous of material things. well, with the exception of books and music. i've only been spending about $20 per semester on cds, though, and i have completely given up on buying books. our local bookstore in fredonia bites anyhow.
only thing i really spend money on is birthday presents, i guess. now i just have to spend more time drawing things for people instead and i'll be set. i miss everyone like mad. okay, time for me to go before i get all whingey and depressive again. maybe tomorrow will be a good day. i hope friday will be. i want to leave in a positive frame of mind. i will. yes. i'm excited. everything's going to be awesome. :)
posted by Unknown at 11:24 PM